.When thinking of different things - i can't find anything that would be really 'mine', that would suit me totally. But there are lots of small ones, which help me keep up with the reality and make me happier. The only problem with them - they aren't long-lasting. And that's the source of my best-worst emotions in one time - mostly these are a few positive ones and one depression. To tell the truth, this depression lasts for a very long time without stops - changes only the number of fluffs i need to lighten it and the number of medicines i need to stop headaches etc.
What was the idea except self-expression - i need to look for one of two things. Whether i find a way to eliminate this depression, or i find anything to keep me up much longer than for half an hour. Because it is terrible to communicate.
Well, i'll try at least.